Tuesday, November 17, 2015
It is supposed to be this tough?
2:12 AM
Lyanne is almost 6 weeks old. It has been the toughest 6 weeks ever since I had velle. Aside from the sleep deprivation, I seemed to be stuck on the sofa nursing constantly. I literally can't do anything at all, and it is frustrating for me.
Somehow I feel like I'm doing something wrong. Shouldn't baby have a fix feeding schedule? Why is she feeding so often, could my milk be insufficient for her? So many doubt and hubby thinks I'm paranoid.
I hope all these will pass soon, I mean since I already hang on for 6 weeks, what's 6 more weeks right? :/
Yesterday I suddenly felt moody when I saw the sky turning dark. I was so moody to the point I was crying before velle went to bed. Hubby will be on night shift today, I guess it will be another moody night for me.
Tuesday, November 03, 2015
Hardwork!
3:57 AM
Little Lyanne is almost 4 weeks old now. And taking care of a newborn is as difficult as I've remembered! My goodness..
Many times I've asked myself why do I even want a 2nd baby and torture myself. I know it's the sleep deprived brain talking haha!
But I feel rather accomplished this time as I've manage to bfeed Lyanne for almost 4 weeks! That's something I didn't get to do with velle (I expressed for 1.5months). Lyanne was very patient with me and a sucks very well, we've been to a lactation office twice to work on latching and clogged breasts.
Short term plan is to bfeed for a month and extending on a month at a time! It is tough and I never imagine that we could do it.