Wednesday, February 03, 2010
Fear of pain
12:59 AM
Suddenly recall the times before i gave birth.The times when i am still pregnant, or maybe before i am pregnant.Since young i fear pain.As a child, i am extra careful.I seldom fall down, hence i have little visible scars( but i have alot of chicken pox scar, my itchy hands)Even when i have diarr,i will cry in the toilet because of the sever cramps.If i have mense cramp, it will be worst.I will feel im almost dead. LOL!And when there is pain in my tummy,i always feel very cold.When im a teenager,i made up my mind to have a C-section if i were to have a baby.So i will be free from all pain!What a good idea. hEEHEEJudging that i have no ear holes at all,you can roughly know my pain threshold.Surprisingly,when im in labor i wasnt afraid at all.In fact i remember clearly how strong in the spirit i felt.I wanted my baby out, FAST!I want her to have a round head. HAHAI diarr 8 times plus vomited once before admitting into the hospital.Nurses insert drip on me, Dr administer Epidural all these arent painful at all.Seriously.But the contraactions are the tough once,whenever it comes i will curl up like a prawn and moan.But still, i wasnt that afraid...I guess, its the power of mother's love.(:It overpowered my fear.Same goes for my mum,who saved me and my sister from those guard dogs.She is afraid of dogs like cats to water(well, my mum also scare of water lar)But she yelled at those dogs just to save us from bites.I would remember this for the rest of my live.I dont know if i have been a good mother to Velle,but for my next baby,i would have to breastfeed him/her for as long as i can (:Nighty (:
