Friday, December 12, 2008
Bad mood
3:20 PM
Yesterday night,i was in a bad mood.A mild one.And whenever i am in a bad mood,i somehow dont realise it.But everything seems to be "disturbing" me.And when i couldnt take it,i would break down and cry.Then i cannot breathe.Because of all the phelgm,and mucus and tears.All choked up.Baby will get shocked ofcourse,and do his very best to comfort me.The main reason is,im VERY tired from Velle baby nonstop action in my stomach.I couldnt sleep,not even nap.I kept feeling hungry,but my throat and chest feel very tight and nauseated.And i was FREAKING LONELY yesterday.Out of a sudden one.So if u say im a strong and brave mummy,i would gladly accept the compliment,because,Can you deal with pregnancy alone like me?Miles away from cloest family,hubby working 12 hrs per day,friends that only appear on the net not by person.and gg out few times per week?And still appear cheerful and appreciative for everything?(i really am happy most of the time, a gift from God perhaps)I congratulate myself,because one fine day when Velle baby is out,i know she will be half as strong as me.And i think i am brave because my mummy was even bravier than me.BUT I STILL UPSET SHE IS NOT COMING WHEN I DELIVER OK!merely 20 hrs only ma.Like how many times will i give birth loh.Maybe for this time only Somemore lewis is the one doing confinement for me! (if i intend to do)And after the month, he will be away for MISSION!means he wont be back home for a month?Love me more wont you?YanwenLabels: Life in Texas, Our baby
