Thursday, September 18, 2008
My body and my heart doesnt match
6:01 PM
11th week through my pregnancy.
soon my first trimester will be ending.
Hope angel is fine, i cant feel it yet.
I do have nightmares about angel going away.
yes it is scary.
Its really bored to be at home,
baby's friend will be gg las vegas.
As much as i wanted to go,
i cant.
i cant take the long long few days car ride.
but i wont mind gg on a plane (=
very much wanted to go disneyland at califonia!!
but when?
not when baby is few months old.
not when my tummy is bloating up.
not when baby is turning 1 too.
>.<
i do love water rides too!
hurricane habor in TX.
i have yet to conquer it.
i love water slides and i can ride all of them.
but my body doesnt permit right?
my heart says "GO!!"
my body says "NO!"
)=
now im living for another life in me.
feel so same, yet different.
I admit i dont have the compassion and heart of a mother yet.
but i need to develop it soon.
before angel goes away,
and i will cry my eyes out. LOL
i want to go san antonio too,
i love marine life, all the swimming stuff.
when can i do all these?
when?
Yanwen
